Cute tombi brave warrior
Jogeshwari Sadhir Sahu
a memoir a dedicated memory
This is in memory of that little innocent and beloved royal puppy Tombi who passed away one night 2 days ago. Someone killed him. A person who is unruly, who is intolerant, who is not serious, is nothing more than a hasty devil. Such a person calls himself a human and God knows what, is immersed in the ego of his superiority, always hurts animals, kills them, kills them, bites and eats them, but he loves the animal so much, respects it so much that he Despite knowing that the person will kill him, he believes in him, comes near him and is killed.
A person who has all the resources but does not have discretion, does not have the sensitivity to understand, who pretends to be busy and tramples so many innocent puppies and animals with his fast car, crushes the animals with his car and moves ahead in fun.
Tombi, a mere 4-5 month old puppy, who was separated from his mother and brought here in front of the society by no one knows who, had been sleeping near the gate of the same society, lazily dozing and sleeping. When I came here on 28th of last month, I saw Tombi lying and sitting in front, a gray puppy was living with him. Both of them were probably brothers. In those days, when I used to go to the market, I would see innocent Tombi and his gray colored brother, both playing or sleeping. His mother was not there but he was not missing her. Both of them would get enough food and they would lie there playing and eating.
Now I too used to give biscuits to both of them while passing by and would laugh and say something to them and they had now started recognizing me. Whenever I passed by, he would sit alert and look at me very innocently.
I too could not give them any time while running, I just got lost in myself, I would give them a little biscuit and make them leave, then I knew that within a month everything would be over and those two little angels would go on some other journey.
I would see them coming and going, would smile, say something affectionately and then walk away. Whenever I came and went, I would see both of them; they were an essential sight on my route and I got used to them. One day I saw that the white one Tombi was lying down, his leg was bandaged and the black one Pappi was sitting near him and he was taking care of him. I went closer and asked – what happened to you?
Then Tombi kept looking at me full of sadness, the black one was calling me puppy as if he felt like a brother.
I talked to them and moved ahead. They saw me together and would have given them something, but both of them were hungry for my love.
Tombi soon got better. There was a tight old belt around her neck. I took it off and threw it away, so whoever had worn it put a new belt on her. This is the time when I did not see the second puppy and I was scared that it might get crushed to death by a vehicle. I remained sad with this worry for two days and Tombi, being alone, kept sleeping with a very sad face.
That innocent child became alone without his brother and was depressed and kept sleeping continuously. Brother, his parents, brothers and friends were everything. But when I was so sad when I couldn’t find him, you can imagine how nervous and sad Tombi would be.
Later it came to light that some drunkard had taken that black companion puppy, his life was ruined, he went away, he got his owner but his white Tombi remained lying alone. Being separated from his brother, he remained lonely, devoid of enthusiasm, and mostly slept and remained lethargic. When brother left, he took away the moments of walking and playing together, now Tombi does not feel like doing anything, it has become her destiny to lie quietly. Brother used to take care of her, both of them used to play and have so much fun, everything was left behind.
Tombi missed him very much, his small world was filled with sadness as if everything was destroyed but the people there allowed him to eat, his little guardian was some child, he was given a new belt. But what about Tombi…if someone gave him something, eating and sleeping lazily here had become his daily routine.
Then everything started becoming normal, I used to go every morning, Tombi would sleep alone, caress her, she would look at me with half-opened eyes for some time and then go to sleep. Now everything started becoming normal. We all used to feed Tombi, forgetting his brother, but he used to miss his brother and used to sleep surrounded by deep depression. He would remain sleeping lazily. If I got food I would eat. I would go and give him cake. For the past few days, he had started asking me for some new cream roll and was becoming a little playful. But I did not pay attention to it. I was considering it normal but a change was taking place in him, he was changing from within. Only 4 months old Tombi was understanding the philosophy of living life. He was not able to live without his brother, he was eating and now he started roaming alone, he was becoming a little playful and active.
It was raining heavily and Tombi’s agility was increasing. It was raining more and more. Now whenever I went, he would surround me, come running towards me and start running back and forth. I considered it his natural behavior and activity and would scold him and chase him away from the road, but he would sit on my road and watch me coming and going. He wanted me to play and give him more time. He wanted my attention and I would rebuke him while running around in my work. But he would not agree and would leave her only when she bought him a cake.
He was filled with sadness as I was no longer going to meet him every morning. He came to know that we were just performing rituals and it was only his brother who was a true companion who was snatched away by this world.
He understood that I was just fulfilling my duty by giving him the cake, I don’t even have time to play with him, I don’t even talk to him. He tried to stop me but I was running. Couldn’t understand the feelings of dear Tombi’s heart. The void left in his life by his brother’s departure could not be filled. Because his brother was his 24-hour companion, Tombi did not feel like it if he separated from him.
I ate cakes etc. for a few days but everything seemed tasteless. Now Tombi he doesn’t like anything, nothing interests him, the world has become empty and meaningless.
First I got separated from my mother and then my brother also left. For some days he wanted to tell me that I should take him because he did not like being alone, but where should I take him. I myself lived in a flat where dogs were not allowed.
Now Tombi understood very well that his brother was his true companion, we all just pretend, throw pieces of bread in front of him while passing by and walk away. He was not hungry, he just wanted company, he wanted to play in the lap. He wanted time and love from me and used to stop me and say – Wait a little! Sit near me and talk to me. I don’t feel sad alone.
But why would we all listen to an innocent puppy? There were big things in our world but there was nothing for the innocent. He was just bored of showing off and didn’t want to eat anymore… He was hungry for love and he again decided to leave this showy and mean world. Brother is gone, now he will not live alone. The pieces of bread could not take the place of a brother for him.
Everyone had a lot to eat, but he was tired of waiting for his brother and knew that his brother would never come to him again. He simply became disenchanted with life. I lost my mind from living. Thought that he would leave this world of pretense.
The whole day I used to look at the people passing by, whenever I saw them, I would run, move from one place to another on the road, I would be afraid that I would get hit by a car.
I would stand and stop the vehicles passing by, but he would run across the road and go to that end. He did not believe. Sitting on the road, he used to look at my brother and then running after seeing me, I used to scold him a lot, beat him up and left him till the gate, but he came following me. Didn’t eat cake, didn’t eat biscuits, just gave some peda, ate it. This was all she could feed him for the last time.
But little did I know that that day I was meeting him for the last time, after this I would never see him, otherwise I would have looked at that innocent child to my heart’s content and pampered him.
It was raining heavily that day and Tombi was tiring me by running here and there a lot. That day, I left him for the second time till the gate and told everyone not to let him go on the road. The same shop owner said, he is calling you and wants to talk.
I was carrying the luggage and purse lightly in the hive and ignored him and kept my eyes down when it came out that he was not coming after me. But he also ran after me for some time. Then I went away and saw that he was looking at me from a distance, that was the last glimpse of both of us, that was his last glimpse, I could not understand that he was saying goodbye to me, he was saying that now we will meet in some other world. The days of our union on this earth are over. Seeing him looking at me, I felt a gasp and moved ahead on the path of my duty. He knew that I have pieces of cake for him but I don’t have time for him, there is no place for him in my house, I can’t live with him like his brother.
He understood that after trapping me in his love like this, one day I would also go away somewhere like my brother and he had decided then and there that he would leave while having fun.
He did not sleep that night due to heavy rain. He had been sleeping since evening but he had to go. When no one was his, would he live for crumbs of bread?
He had no interest in living, he did not sleep that night, he did not eat even if everyone gave him something, he just kept running madly alone on the road drenched in the rain and when all the shops were closed, a drunk bike driver ran him over. For a moment, he got hit by the car and screamed and gave up his life.
He didn’t want to live, so he didn’t sleep, didn’t cry, he knew that now there was no one in the world, he took his brother away from his mother and took him away. I don’t take him with me, why would he live and he died on the road while playing.
Some drunkard had taken away his brother and some drunkard hit him with a car and he was freed from this world. I did not go the next day because of rain. When he did not show up yesterday morning, I thought that someone had taken him with him to raise him like that black puppy. I took a sigh of relief that if I leave from here, there will be no pain of separation from him.
But that freed me from worries. When she went in the afternoon and asked, the cake seller told her that someone had killed the puppy.
The earth slipped beneath my feet. There was no limit to my sorrow. I started looking here and there with empty eyes. I wish I could have seen him once. Just the day before yesterday, he was troubling me so much, he was running here and there without eating the cake, then I was telling him, sit aside, why are you running on the roads, you will be hit by a car driver.
But he was so happy that he went out playing, celebrating his freedom from that life, and didn’t even sleep at night. He was bored with this life and wanted to go to God in the lap of God. He asked God to call him to himself, then God sent an angel and called him in his lap.
That selfless brave warrior is gone, he no longer has any attachment to life and if there is any attachment to life then what would he do by living, he has made life stumble. Before sleeping in the embrace of death, he became playful and dynamic and played and danced a lot. His brother must have felt sad about his death but what to do, one gets as much support as one has.
Tombi, my beloved king has left us. He went into madness while laughing and left for me with a deep breath the pain and its memories. I just remember that brave and courageous warrior puppy, I want to see a glimpse of his sweet innocence, but where? Those who leave this world never meet again except in memories. That’s it! Now I don’t feel like writing more. I would just lie down with my eyes closed and think that a glimpse of my tomb would be visible in my dreams during my sleep.
The cake seller said – He had to go, so he was going on the road again and again that night. He must have been born again.
I think of that lion warrior running on the road, celebrating and welcoming death, I just take a deep breath and remain silent.
Jogeshwari sadhir sahu
memories and memoirs
Tombi you will be missed!!!
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He got separated from my beloved Tombi just a month ago.
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